Hindsight is 20/20 forMeghan King Edmonds.
The formerReal Housewives of Orange Countystar is opening up about the regrets she now feels about her five-year marriage to estranged husband Jim Edmonds in the wake of their divorce filing, especially regarding how he treated her on the Bravo reality show.
“I felt like I was such a dumba–,” Meghan, 35, said during an appearance onHeather McDonald’sJuicy Scooppodcast.“I was watching myself like, ‘Oh my god, Meg, you’re so dumb.’ ”
“I wasn’t dumb, I knew what I saw, but I was defending him so much like any good spouse should defend,” Meghan added. “And that’s what I did. But I think I was brainwashing myself to really see what was going down.”
Meghan King (L); Jim Edmonds.Alberto E. Rodriguez/Getty; Charles Sykes/Bravo/NBCU Photo Bank via Getty
AsRHOCviewers will remember, Jim, 49, often got a lot of flack during Meghan’s three seasons ofRHOCfor seeming unsupportive of her and the show.
The two were shown bickering over everything from Meghan’s desire to start a family to their long-distance relationship. (The former baseball player spent six months out of the year in St. Louis for work, leaving Meghan alone in Orange County).
Looking back on it all onJuicy Scoop, Meghan admitted, “It was hard for me to watch a lot of the interactions that Jim would have with me.”
“I just think if the spotlight shifts from anyone other than him, it’s a challenge for his ego,” said Meghan, who leftRHOCafter season 12. “But at the same time, suck it up! Clearly this means something to your wife, [so] suck it up, swallow your pride, and just play along for five minutes and then you can go do whatever you want to do. That’s what I think about it.”
“He was such a curmudgeon about it,” Meghan said, noting how Jim was absent during her in vitro fertilization procedure fornow 3-year-old daughter Aspen. “When [season 2] came up, he was like, ‘I’m not going to film.’ If you want to skip a party, okay fine, but maybe if your wife is going through IVF, you make a little bit of an effort! That bothered me. But I would ask people to think about their marriage. This is the person you love, and you’re committed to. You make excuses for them and … pick your battles.”
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Meghan and Jim married in 2014 after dating for a year and a half.
Last June,sexual text messages between Jim and another woman surfaced. The two — who share daughter Aspen as well as 18-month twinsHart King and Hayes King— weathered the scandal and stayed together, but they split in October whenJim filed for divorceamidrumors that he had an affair with their former nanny, Carly Wilson. (Both Edmonds and Wilson have denied having a sexual relationship).
“I really tried to keep my brain away from that because I’m big on manifestations and keeping it all positive, so I didn’t allow thoughts like that to enter my mind,” she said. “However I did know there were massive red flags that we needed to work on and work through in order to come out on the other end. So that’s where I was focused.”
“I love my family. I worked really hard for my family,” she also said, “I worked really hard for my marriage and my stepkids. Really hard. After I found out that Jim had a sexting affair for months on end — despite seeing that, I said, ‘I love you, I’m committed to you, let’s work through this, let’s figure this out.’ And that didn’t happen.”
“Some people wouldn’t have tried,” Meghan added. “I’m an enabler, I think we just discovered that. But I did what I did. I can’t regret it. I have three kids.”
As for her claims on theJuicy Scooppodcast, Jim’s rep Steve Honig said in a statement to PEOPLE that the former MLB player does not want to discuss “private matters” in the media.
“Publicly discussing private matters is not in the best interest of his children and he is not going to engage on that level,” the statement said.
source: people.com
