“It was the most shocking thing,” says Blair, 49. “After I’d finished the book, I honestly thought, ‘Well, that’s the dramatic portion of my life. That’s done.’ He was charged with a felony. I look forward to it being behind me.”

In March, a judge granted the actress arestraining order againstthe former boyfriend, whom she dated for roughly seven years.

Selma Blair Rollout

With the release of her new memoir on the horizon, as well as celebrating her 50th birthday in June, Blair’s focus is on the positive and what her future holds.

“I’m in a good place,” says theCruel Intentionsstar. “I cannot believe all this happened in my life, and I’m still here and I’m okay.”

“It’s a lot, she admits. “I wrote the book for my son . . . and for people trying to find the deepest hole to crawl into until the pain passes.”

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Selma Blair Rollout

In this week’s PEOPLE cover story, the actress opens up about her addiction and why it began at such a young age.

“I don’t know if I would’ve survived childhood without alcoholism,” she says. “That’s why it’s such a problem for a lot of people. It really is a huge comfort, a huge relief in the beginning. Maybe even the first few years for me because I did start really young with that as a comfort, as my coping mechanism.”

Sober since 2016, Blair hopes that sharing her journey and the more shocking events from her past will help those living with similar burdens.

“I feel much more secure in my life,” she says. “As long as my son is okay, and I don’t have an immediate death sentence or am in immediate peril, then I could probably handle anything.”

If you or someone you know has been sexually assaulted, please contact the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673) or go torainn.org.

source: people.com